I've heard you say it a million times but what ever comes of it. Why should I believe you if you are just going to play again and again. This doesn't help either of us and it most certainly isn't going to benefit the circumstances so honestly, what is your motive?
I'll never figure this out, I sure am no longer going to let something that isn't there thrive and overall, nothing is going to stop me from finding what makes me happy.
I transparently expressed my love and concern, and discarded it becomes. I throw away curiosity and interest and now....NOW you want more of it? Times like this is what is going to eat me alive and teach me more about myself and yet again, I take a painful step into reality but yet am that much stronger.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Just plain EVIL
Out of all honesty, what does it take to convey ones individuality to secure success so that others my see the potential that lies within? I don’t know that I’ll ever come to the conclusion of that question but I can contribute to the idea that living in the manner of being you will always address the unknown outcome. She will never know what she doesn’t know about me and I don’t think she ever will. I honestly can’t explain why I liked her but that feeling will soon dissipate and I too shall become more prepared for someone far greater than she.
As you may wonder what in the world could have pushed me to this insanity, it’s easily elucidated in the vicinity of a vivid or brilliant self-importance. As an ongoing attempt to complete this process, I strive for a personal witness of one thing and one thing only. You too can have this witness if you let the spirit testify to you through the light of Christ that you have been blessed with. It’s found in a talk by Virginia H. Pearce titled the Grand Truths of Eternity. Now you might ask yourself why I don’t just come out and tell you the veracity of my intentions but what are you to learn if I just tell you? I dare not steal the infinite and measureless opportunity for you to be taught by your Father in Heaven. Its like those times when you are reading the scriptures, you come across something immaculate and you go to share it and it’s as if it’s no longer where you found it the forefend context made just for you. I can’t speak to you what the spirit wants you to hear, but you will hear what the spirit wants you to hear it when you’re studying or reading from your inhabited motives. A pure methodical ken will lead you and guide you to the celestialized aspiration. Now to tie this all back into what brought about this verbose text, I will lay it out for you.
Time is precious, and so are the Daughters of God. People say love is not a game, but yet why do we have so many players? I will be honest to my readers. I find no contentment in filibustering with my eternal salvation nor should one find it “fun” or “be confused about” to waste time in hopes that “it” works itself out. Sure it has taken time and effort to swing my understanding-sledge-hammer at the walls of “security” that’s taken me a life time to build, but those walls have created a fissure for people to peak at me and identify a witness of who I am.
So now that I’m done speaking my mind, all I ask of girls is that if you don’t know what you want, just say it. Please don’t play it off with time in hopes that he will just disappear, (because he wont) but be polite and say, “I’d rather spend time as friends first and if it moves forward from there, we could try it.” I can guarantee that 20 months of my life (5 different girls X 4 months) would have been different had I known…….you never were interested……
Heavenly Father knows best and I know he is looking out for me. I can testify that he is aware of me and is constantly working on me so that I my be thrusted back into the blacksmiths coals to yet be refined again in the beatings and refinement process that I’m about to under go.
I have forgiven and forgotten.
As you may wonder what in the world could have pushed me to this insanity, it’s easily elucidated in the vicinity of a vivid or brilliant self-importance. As an ongoing attempt to complete this process, I strive for a personal witness of one thing and one thing only. You too can have this witness if you let the spirit testify to you through the light of Christ that you have been blessed with. It’s found in a talk by Virginia H. Pearce titled the Grand Truths of Eternity. Now you might ask yourself why I don’t just come out and tell you the veracity of my intentions but what are you to learn if I just tell you? I dare not steal the infinite and measureless opportunity for you to be taught by your Father in Heaven. Its like those times when you are reading the scriptures, you come across something immaculate and you go to share it and it’s as if it’s no longer where you found it the forefend context made just for you. I can’t speak to you what the spirit wants you to hear, but you will hear what the spirit wants you to hear it when you’re studying or reading from your inhabited motives. A pure methodical ken will lead you and guide you to the celestialized aspiration. Now to tie this all back into what brought about this verbose text, I will lay it out for you.
Time is precious, and so are the Daughters of God. People say love is not a game, but yet why do we have so many players? I will be honest to my readers. I find no contentment in filibustering with my eternal salvation nor should one find it “fun” or “be confused about” to waste time in hopes that “it” works itself out. Sure it has taken time and effort to swing my understanding-sledge-hammer at the walls of “security” that’s taken me a life time to build, but those walls have created a fissure for people to peak at me and identify a witness of who I am.
So now that I’m done speaking my mind, all I ask of girls is that if you don’t know what you want, just say it. Please don’t play it off with time in hopes that he will just disappear, (because he wont) but be polite and say, “I’d rather spend time as friends first and if it moves forward from there, we could try it.” I can guarantee that 20 months of my life (5 different girls X 4 months) would have been different had I known…….you never were interested……
Heavenly Father knows best and I know he is looking out for me. I can testify that he is aware of me and is constantly working on me so that I my be thrusted back into the blacksmiths coals to yet be refined again in the beatings and refinement process that I’m about to under go.
I have forgiven and forgotten.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
The passings of a friend
Distraughtly walking into the chapel after a member of the Bishop Bric asked us to come together, we all wonder why we were conjoining back into the chapel.
The elders quarm president, Dan Taylor took his next step towards progression today....to a more exalted sphere.
I never sobbed so hard. Unexpected occasions happen, that's what slapped me in the face. A defining moment in my life made me weep. I have so many corrections to make in my life and it seems like past experiences didn't hit me hard enough. It'll be hard to see him go, but at the same time, how grateful I am to have the knowledge of the Plan of Salvation. Saying a prayer in my heart for his family, I only pray that they will have the enabling power of the atonement working in their lives as they recognize that all will be well.
I'll miss you Dan
The elders quarm president, Dan Taylor took his next step towards progression today....to a more exalted sphere.
I never sobbed so hard. Unexpected occasions happen, that's what slapped me in the face. A defining moment in my life made me weep. I have so many corrections to make in my life and it seems like past experiences didn't hit me hard enough. It'll be hard to see him go, but at the same time, how grateful I am to have the knowledge of the Plan of Salvation. Saying a prayer in my heart for his family, I only pray that they will have the enabling power of the atonement working in their lives as they recognize that all will be well.
I'll miss you Dan
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Spoken words on a keyboard.
I was once told that when you want to write, you are to just let the words fall as they may and then go back and fix them. Seeing how this is just a basic entry, I really don't care to go back and fix anything because I rather be known for what I have to say then try to butter up my words (even though I do at times) Spoken verbatim, at least for me, there are times when I hope that people will do one of two things when I'm speaking. Whether it be in a crowd, teaching, or just a one on one moment to seize, is when I pray that it's understood. I know that I'm not the best of person to open up when explaining these things but I think in honestly, it's one of the few things I can justify when I say it's a guy thing.
One: When a guy is talking........just listen, don't add to what he's already dealing with, he'll work it out, really. So, just listen.
Two: If he asks a question, just answer it, please don't answer with a question because that doesn't help us one bit, EVER! oh yeah, and if there isn't a question, don't try to answer what he is sharing with you, he's doing that, just sharing.
Iscrutable experiences are at times what keeps us going for the sense of adventure and we need in order to succeed and find self-worth. Not all at once will certain happenings acknowledge our needs but it sure has a lot to teach us. If at times there is a blank stare of ken in our minds eye, there is more to be sought then just the adverage answer that soceity will fill your head with. Welp!
One: When a guy is talking........just listen, don't add to what he's already dealing with, he'll work it out, really. So, just listen.
Two: If he asks a question, just answer it, please don't answer with a question because that doesn't help us one bit, EVER! oh yeah, and if there isn't a question, don't try to answer what he is sharing with you, he's doing that, just sharing.
Iscrutable experiences are at times what keeps us going for the sense of adventure and we need in order to succeed and find self-worth. Not all at once will certain happenings acknowledge our needs but it sure has a lot to teach us. If at times there is a blank stare of ken in our minds eye, there is more to be sought then just the adverage answer that soceity will fill your head with. Welp!
Monday, July 9, 2007
Fate
This is a email that I sent to a couple of friends and found it interesting. Just thought I would post it here.
Carolyn & Mike Lesch,
Carolyn & Mike Lesch,
It's great to hear from you, I apologize it's taken me so long to get back to you. I'll be moving out of my house (cause I still live at home) and I'm going to take my 87 comanche with me. I'll then start the tear-down process and learn the ins and outs of my jeep because I bought a new comanche....haha. I want to learn everything I can about it. My newer Jeep (new to me) is a 90 comanche eliminator. I've decided to go all out, but I dont have a picture yet. However, here are the specs:
8" lift
cut finders
35X12.5
Dana 44 rear w/power on lockers
MileMarker Hub conversion kit front
94 cherokee motor
4.88 gears
quick release sway bar
3.88 Atlas Transfer case with independant axle shifters
and an exterior roll cage
I'll have to get you a picture soon, it's pretty sweet look'n! I can't wait to take it down to moab. I'm thinking about going with my Brother in Law who is way experienced and fun to go with in October, who knows. How are things going in your neck of the woods? My dad is running for mayor here in ogden and keeping me busy.
Mike, occasionally I reminisce about our trip and the short time we had down there but when I was thinking about that trip the other day and our conversation on FATE. When I was trying to explain that it's not so much that we become upset at fate but we need to look at the picture and think what "fate" was trying to teach us. So, let me back up a bit and explain my new addition of knowledge.
I remember commenting that fate is bound to happen.....however, my thoughts have changed on that. The other day I was I think at church and someone made a comment that I don't think anyone else took into consideration, but he said...."don't temp fate"
That gave me a whole new meaning because fate is what WILL happen and NOT supposed to happen when you make a decision that isn't meant to be. Now in spiritual terms, people will tell you that God has a plan for you and everything is according to his will. However, in his will, there are two paths that we can take in order to understand and learn for our better knowledge of why we are here and what we are supposed to learn. His path is not fate, it's destiny.
Destiny is the will or principle caused by which things in general are believed to come to be as they are or events to happen as they do because of choices we make.
Fate is defering the understanding and knowledge to be learned, is left up to us on how we learn... not Gods way, because gods way will teach you so well that you don't question what is being taught, but if you have to teach yourself, can you learn everything you need to about that situation?
And then the second part ties right into what we were talking about that night. It's not so much to judge fate and ask ourselves "are we to hate or blame fate for this?" but to ask, what is to be taught here.
As I think of an inevitable and often adverse outcome, condition, or end, fate would fit that slogan but so would destiny, it just depends on how you recognize the two!
Well, I won't bore you much anymore but I'd love to hear from you again and I'll try to get a picture to you soon!
Take Care,
Trevor Hansen
I never really thought of it being that way but when the Lord intends for you to learn something, one way or another, it's going to happen. And when you think about it, he's such a wonderful parent because he's always teaching us with guidance and commandments to utilize in our daily lives! How amazing!
I never really thought of it being that way but when the Lord intends for you to learn something, one way or another, it's going to happen. And when you think about it, he's such a wonderful parent because he's always teaching us with guidance and commandments to utilize in our daily lives! How amazing!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Who would have known?
In cleft spaces, memories are forthcoming in which I hope erudition is obtained. When people are around me are deficient in contributing to fortifying their wonts, dissipation takes it’s place and comprehension of me, a Son of God, goes dormant and crawls right back into that cleavage.
The insensitive finite thoughts that render the source to enable an effect of actions are what cause the bypass of learning about a Soul. I feel like people do that so often to me. Just one of many times I’ll share. Having these sensations for this individual, I always persuaded myself to think that if I could just make things work, this could turn into something far greater than I could ever foresee. Holding close to the experiences and times that I spent with her, I’ll never replace them with meager selfishness thoughts of; what did I do wrong?
Times have since moved on and explanations are no longer elucidated. If the time comes for a conversation that leads to other movement in life, so be it. But as for myself, my decision has been made and I have had to move on due to time constrains and the desire of another being.
All of this thought process came because of a discussion. But the bottom line of the feelings I have is that I know and understand that I’m an elect Son of God…….
……Striving for 100%
The insensitive finite thoughts that render the source to enable an effect of actions are what cause the bypass of learning about a Soul. I feel like people do that so often to me. Just one of many times I’ll share. Having these sensations for this individual, I always persuaded myself to think that if I could just make things work, this could turn into something far greater than I could ever foresee. Holding close to the experiences and times that I spent with her, I’ll never replace them with meager selfishness thoughts of; what did I do wrong?
Times have since moved on and explanations are no longer elucidated. If the time comes for a conversation that leads to other movement in life, so be it. But as for myself, my decision has been made and I have had to move on due to time constrains and the desire of another being.
All of this thought process came because of a discussion. But the bottom line of the feelings I have is that I know and understand that I’m an elect Son of God…….
……Striving for 100%
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Joys of new beginnings
Starting my new jobs at Market Star is amazing. I'm a National Event Manager and have the say for what goes in my Region, I love it. I never thought that I would in a managing position but I kind of like it. Yeah, it has its ups and downs but the best additive about it is the people I work with and the environment. I don't think I could ask for better people to be around and know that they are here to help me. The validation of the blessings of the Lord is always recognizable when you really want to see it, you may have to ask at times, but it's always feasible if you really want it bad enough. It has taken me six months to find a job that I finally looked forward to applying for but in return, I know that I'm not only her for a job. One of the reasons I know that I'm here is because of who I am. The other day, I sent this email to a gal that I work closely with and I told her how much I appreciate what she does and for making my job easier. In return, she mentioned that out of all the NEG Managers (like 8 or 9 of ) I have been the only one to thank her for what she is doing. I know that it'll make a difference for her and for me in the work environment.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
Every day encounter....
Pros and cons of living at home take their toll. I for one wish I could move out and be on my own for awhile just to test out the wakes of life and to see how well I can handle it. I understand that when you move out, you're not only paying rent ( or payments), bills, food and the cost of living, but the very lucrative experience of living on your own and having 100% freedom in the everyday choices that you face. There isn't a day go by where some one questions what I'm doing, or what is being done to do what I should be doing. I understand completely the responsibilities that I have living under this roof that I'm thankful for but is there ever any give and take?
grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!
There are times that I strive to make the best of all things but often it takes a number and is emotionally sifting me often. There are the little things that keep my head above water and treading lightly, prayers and studies. But in a recent conversation I had with a close friend, the basics of scripture study and verbal prayers will not reach to the law of minimum/maximum. The law of minimum/maximum is the actions you live by in order to obtain revelation for yourself to know whether the spirit will corroborate your choices. Just like the importance of putting your calling before everything else while your single.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!
There are times that I strive to make the best of all things but often it takes a number and is emotionally sifting me often. There are the little things that keep my head above water and treading lightly, prayers and studies. But in a recent conversation I had with a close friend, the basics of scripture study and verbal prayers will not reach to the law of minimum/maximum. The law of minimum/maximum is the actions you live by in order to obtain revelation for yourself to know whether the spirit will corroborate your choices. Just like the importance of putting your calling before everything else while your single.
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